the end of the first month of 2011

a lot has happen since the last time i have blogged.my life seems like i dont fit in it any more. they only time people really need me is when they need me to do something, and then other times im like a ghost and no one can see me. if i could i would sleep with my best friend in the world he just listens to me and he could listen to me forever. when im with him it feels like its him and me and no one else. but then when i have to go home i know no one will ask , hey how was pegasus, or what did you do tonight. they are always busy with the babies or when i come home my dad was at work. but then i got a txt asking how pegasus was and then i just wanted to start crying. but then other days when i start saying something about pegasus my family jokes around and says to journal. i do laugh but at the same time i want to go to my room and just wish i was there and i could be telling him. like yesterday my sister with the two kids went out to party ( drink) and my mom and i had to watch the babies. then i heard my dad come in this morning just turning 6 and said she didn't come home that her butt whole bf had to much and did not want to drive her home so then i had them like all day today. when she came home she didn't say thank you she just starting to be mean. i cant stand his anymore i just wish she would move out. or i will be doing something about it. i just wish i had a human someone hat could take me away from it all.