CHUCK

My hero is chuck he is a therapeutic horse where kids can ride him. he shows me that i can do things i just have to believe in myself. i was thinking tonight that that day when i go to work and he is not there and i cant see and talk to him it will be hard to pass his stall. i know there will be a lot of memories that will be there. i know he will still be there with me. its just will be hard to explain to people why im so sad and upset that a horse passed away. thats just it he is NOT just a horse he is a part of me. if his heart just keeps going and they retire him and he leaves i will be devastated. the place i work do not tell us were they go if they retire them or if they pass away. that is why i am so worried when he gets and eye infection because it might become more then that. i love the days were we work together and have a great time. He will be a part of me now and forever. you cant find another horse like him. yea you can get the same breed and the height but his attitude you can never get that. when someone says you can never get him back its so true. Chuck i will always love you and i will miss you when you are not here anymore to make me smile when you give me a hug. when no one can cheer me up and your the one who does. i love you so much

Tonight at youth group it was really powerful i got closer to God and i am loving it i put up on my tweeter that i am NOT ashamed of being a christen and that God is my father and not one can change that about me. Now for all of you that are a christen and are hiding it from ur friends because you don't know what they will think or will make you less popular REALLY is it worth not showing that you are in this family. And Celebs are like yes and i would like to thank God for getting me here and then you see them doing drugs or porn or something else and that's not what christen do. so Celebs when you thank God when you get an award then if your not a christen become one and if you are and truly are then act like it because you are in this family and be proud of it and if you other celeb friends don't want to hang out with you that means they are not your friends at ALL. Be a light and let people know.

my hero

today i found out that the first 2 weeks of school would be doing this my hero project. I have been thing about who i wanted to put as my hero i have a lot of people and an animal i do look up to. its going to be fun to let everyone know that hey this is my hero and no one can stop me. last night i did get to see my hero. i get to see 2 time a week for close to 5 hrs 10 hrs a week. i got to work with him. he is not your normal hero. you will all find out soon who he is. some of you might know who it is. i hope you all have had a great day so far.
God bless =>

Pegasus

pegasus you might know of the horse with wings. but to me and the kids and the other volunteers it means so much more then just a horse with wings. When we (the other volunteers) can see the kids learn and see the light bulbs go on. you hear from teachers i love to see the light bulbs go off when they know what they are doing. i never knew that till i started to work out there. you get so attached to the kids and the horses. i remember the first time i saw him i knew we would get along really nice. the other volunteers said that he would try to bit at the box and the lift. he never did and has never done it. i can led him with out a led rope. he gives me hugs (kinda weird) but yes hugs lol. i cant wait to see him every week. and its hard not to see him when i cant make it out there. i love you chuck always and forever. everyone asks do you have a man in your life and i say yes 3 almost 4. 3 in which are human and one is a horse. they look at me like im stupid. but when u get an animals love you cant refuse it they just keep giving it. so why not take it !!!!! <3

ahhhhh the end of summer

i know i have not wrote in a long time been really busy with trying to finish up school and then summer has been so crazy. the end of summer came with the horse show it was so great to see all the kids show off what they have learned. i have also gotten reconnect with some old friends and made some new ones :D at youth group and at pegasus! i miss chuck have not seen him in 2 weeks it seems like a month. (chuck is a horse i have fallen in love with) tomorrow is the fist day back i cant wait to see all the horses, kids and volunteers! i have been thinking i really want to do a post all about pegasus it has impacted my life so much. so ill will be posting one really really soon! have a blessed last day of summer if your fist day is tomorrow!!!!!!!!!

WOW

i cant believe that old volunteers can just walk in and it looks like hey have been there forever and new volunteers can just be apart of the group when i started i had to earn my way up i never got to work with the good horses i had the bad ones or i had to pick that is just not fare. it just feels like i a have been swapped out for new. i just want the world to stop for a second and me and chuck would be there and then Kurt comes in life would be so good. i just want to talk to him, i just want to ride chuck and just go until there is no where to go.

life

i don't know what people want me to be anymore i don't want to be like that i just wish i could go out and be myself. i want a guy to ask me truly how are you? i want him to want to talk to me and cares about if I'm stressed out or not. i want him to say hey do want to come over and just get away from all of it. i need to get away from it. i am so stressed out that i don't know what to do with myself. i want my parents to like him. i want him to come to church with me. i want him to say good night to me and mean it and not just say it. i want him to call just to hear my voice. i want him to come over to the house and have my niece to know and love him like he has been part of the family forever i want my mom and dad to say proudly that this is my daughters boyfriend. i want to know and like his parents. i want my BFFF girlfriend to like him and that he wont hurt me physically or emotionally.