WOW

i cant believe that old volunteers can just walk in and it looks like hey have been there forever and new volunteers can just be apart of the group when i started i had to earn my way up i never got to work with the good horses i had the bad ones or i had to pick that is just not fare. it just feels like i a have been swapped out for new. i just want the world to stop for a second and me and chuck would be there and then Kurt comes in life would be so good. i just want to talk to him, i just want to ride chuck and just go until there is no where to go.

life

i don't know what people want me to be anymore i don't want to be like that i just wish i could go out and be myself. i want a guy to ask me truly how are you? i want him to want to talk to me and cares about if I'm stressed out or not. i want him to say hey do want to come over and just get away from all of it. i need to get away from it. i am so stressed out that i don't know what to do with myself. i want my parents to like him. i want him to come to church with me. i want him to say good night to me and mean it and not just say it. i want him to call just to hear my voice. i want him to come over to the house and have my niece to know and love him like he has been part of the family forever i want my mom and dad to say proudly that this is my daughters boyfriend. i want to know and like his parents. i want my BFFF girlfriend to like him and that he wont hurt me physically or emotionally.

i hate my life

My sisters won hey got me to brake i hate it i cant stand it at all i need to get a punching bag like real thing i cant stand it i am going to the farthest collage i can find