just yesterday

last year was so much better in my social life. i could hang out with my friends when ever i wanted. I had my first love he got me though everything. when ever i was upset he could always tell and cheer me up but saying something stupid. every time i would get a txt from him i just smiled. everyone knew when i got a txt from him. i love when he would say good morning and say good night. that all ended so soon. he broke up with the txt talk 2 weeks before my birthday. i did not want to believe it. but then that morning i didn't get a txt from him the whole day i waited for him to say something. i went numb i didn't feel any thing. i put a face up, i went 4 months with out anyone knowing anything then one thing sent me off and i could not hold it in anymore. i started yelling at my sister and then i went for a run. i was so mad then when i was coming i hear a honk and its him he waved i just wanted to yell at him and say WHY. WHY DID YOU DO THIS. WHY DID YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE THIS. i just put my hands up like what i had tears running down my face. he never cared about me. he never was going to do anything about how i felt about him he just thew it out the window. how can i still have a little feelings for him when he made me feel like this i hate to do but even when he messages me i get that smile back on my face and i love the feel i get from it. so tonight feels so weird last year around this time i told him liked him and what did he do he went and kissed a girl when the ball dropped. He told me the next day and he didn't even care how it made me feel. i hate this time of the year when single people want to be in a relationship. so all the single people out there its fine just wait for that right man or women to come in your life and then you wont care what people think or what they say about you just think positive :D

the new year it coming so fast

I wanted to get a blog to share what goes on day by day in the my life. I have a Mom, dad 2 sisters and a twin brother. to add on that i have a niece and two nephews. it all started in 2009 in January when my sister told my parents that she was pregnant. that October my niece was born. then in 2010 again in January the same sister told them again she was pregnant, that October my first nephew was born. That's when all hell broke lose. my other sister came in my room about April and said she might be pregnant . and she was. she had her baby boy this year December 18. It feels like i am a teen mom when i don't even have any kids at all. My mom and dad works so hard but my sister with the 2 baby's treat them like crap. I would love to say something everyday when she says something stupid. i cant. I wake up by my niece going up and down the hall saying nana nana nana (thats my mom) and then i hear my sister shhhhhh na there sleeping. and then i hear my mom come out to rock her. i just want to say if you cant take care of one baby then stop spreading your legs to the butt whole.my other sister says she is not going back to the guy but she will she will do he say thing my others sister did. I will never do anything like that till i am married and out of collage. you see shows like 16 and pregnant and they say you can prevent it but this is there 2 or 3 season come on. though out the years things have change so much. my grandma said that this would never happen when she was a teen. they always had other people with them or their parents with them when she had my grandpa over. well this is a day in my life. its crazy and i want to be out everyday but i only get to see my friends once a month. i am a teen i dont know what my sisters are going to do when i start to date i am not going to stay home i will have my life back so to bad they can get a baby sister or take them to day care. have a great New Year Eve drive safe