just yesterday

last year was so much better in my social life. i could hang out with my friends when ever i wanted. I had my first love he got me though everything. when ever i was upset he could always tell and cheer me up but saying something stupid. every time i would get a txt from him i just smiled. everyone knew when i got a txt from him. i love when he would say good morning and say good night. that all ended so soon. he broke up with the txt talk 2 weeks before my birthday. i did not want to believe it. but then that morning i didn't get a txt from him the whole day i waited for him to say something. i went numb i didn't feel any thing. i put a face up, i went 4 months with out anyone knowing anything then one thing sent me off and i could not hold it in anymore. i started yelling at my sister and then i went for a run. i was so mad then when i was coming i hear a honk and its him he waved i just wanted to yell at him and say WHY. WHY DID YOU DO THIS. WHY DID YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE THIS. i just put my hands up like what i had tears running down my face. he never cared about me. he never was going to do anything about how i felt about him he just thew it out the window. how can i still have a little feelings for him when he made me feel like this i hate to do but even when he messages me i get that smile back on my face and i love the feel i get from it. so tonight feels so weird last year around this time i told him liked him and what did he do he went and kissed a girl when the ball dropped. He told me the next day and he didn't even care how it made me feel. i hate this time of the year when single people want to be in a relationship. so all the single people out there its fine just wait for that right man or women to come in your life and then you wont care what people think or what they say about you just think positive :D